it's been a while
didn't realize it's been almost two weeks since i've blogged last. thanks for reminding me, jeff.sobering: my life is filled with one dichotomy after another (irony that i juxtaposed one with dichotomy, but i digress). my day job is pretty mundane, mostly boring, especially now that my boss is gone for the better part of the rest of the year. i edit documents, i send e-mails, i make sure library books are in order on the shelves. i mean, it's not rocket science folks. then i go home to the transitional home for single moms and i'm put in my place time and again. the latest happening involves a prospective new resident. she's turning 18 wednesday. she's two months pregnant. about 5 months ago she got dropped off by her mom at a bus stop with all of her belongings. that's it. the folks at the bus station called the cops. they came, almost arrested her for breaking curfew, when they realized she'd been abandoned and had no place to go. they took her to a crisis center. she entered into a consensual relationship with a 24 year old. she got pregnant. he went to jail, she was placed in a foster home. now she's about to be homeless unless we offer her a place to stay. hopefully she'll move in, we'll be able to provide her with a safe place and hope for a future. she's had a rough life. i'm amazed at her willingness to continue to try at all. from the mundane to the shocking reality of what some people live through and face each day.
i'm really trying to live in the here and now when i so easily jump to the future, a future i'd like to create and make fit into a neat little picture of bliss. much easier imagined than waited upon. so i am caught between the what is and what will be. as beth orton so aptly puts it:
Some of the time the future
Comes right round to haunt me
Some of the time the future
Comes round just to see
That all is as it should be
Like it’s there to remind me
We’ve got to wait and see
Got to let it be
Wait and see
in other news, i'm also learning how difficult distance can be, how much of a girl i really am, and how i just really don't like surfacey conversations that cover over a multitude of questions and desires and words not spoken because of a lack of proximity.
posted by Loren @ 4:14 PM
1 Comments:
wow. i hope she does stay with you. it's really sad that a lot of "street kids" start out with parents who don't really give a damn, evidenced in them abandoning or abusing their kids. i wish a chachi came with a warning label... people don't think long term enough.
regarding proximity, while i'm sure those things seem hard and harsh right now, that's good that you're going through them. the time will come when movement is needed and that time is not now. and that sometimes is enough. besides that 18 year old needs some of the loren that i love to love her.
you rock. but you knew that already.
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