Hope & Question

attacked by an animal

weird dreams plagued my restless sleep. in part of the dream, a group of people were on some sort of boat (when we boarded it was supposed to be some tour of something or other). from the boat we watched this cheetah (maybe?) chase and grab a fox. then, all of a sudden, either the cheetah or the fox starting getting near the boat and coming for my feet. I was screaming and trying to keep my feet tucked under me, but the animal kept coming.
another sequence in the dream, i had to walk to the school where I needed to sign up for classes. i couldn't figure out how to sign up for what i needed. and remember, i had walked all the way there (from wherever I was, of course). my sister shows up and we get in a fight (physical one). then i walk away and sense that suddenly i'm starving. so i get in the cafeteria line, but realize i only have $3.50. i order a chicken leg, a biscuit and something to drink. i pray they don't ask me to pay. and i don't have to pay. i eat and then on to another sequence...then i'm in the snow on a hill and have to traverse to the other side. that's all i remember about that part. there's one more troubling sequence that now (of course) i can't recall.
this is why it takes me a while to want to wake up occasionally...because i'm trying to resolve the dreams i have. the alarm goes off, i get up and hit snooze and then go back to bed so that i can try to make my dreams have happy endings.

in the new year, i do have a couple of resolutions.

i'm going to try and shoot for walking 45 minutes at least 3 times a day.
i'm going to try and shoot for not cussing, or even thinking a cuss word, every time i think of my current boss.
shawn and i are going to try and pray for a couple of people each night before we go to bed and are also going to try and get up early to read scripture together. we did this when we were dating and also when we first were married. have become a little slack in this.

i turn 30 in 10 days. not so much looking forward to it, but the day should be good. i have started taking off on my birthday. i use my one personal day. makes sense to me. so i've scheduled a pedicure and a hair cut and shawn's taking me out for dinner (in Marin and somewhere I've not been before is all I know) that evening. So it should be a good day.

but 30 makes me think of being responsible and having my stuff all together and i don't yet. still trying to figure out the whole what i'm going to be when i grow up. i'm now considering coaching (kind of instead of counseling). but i'm not for sure.

anyway, hopefully 2009 will be a good one. God have mercy.

posted by Loren @ 10:08 AM