Wednesday, November 30, 2005

i'm back

got back last night from chicago, where I spent Thanksgiving day with my aunt and uncle (and my aunt's side of the family) and the rest of the weekend devoted to the involvements of Brad's wedding. All went well. Good to see people I hadn't seen in a while. Happy to see Brad so happy. Realized how life goes on and people grow up. Cool to see that. Am at a good place emotionally and spiritually (today, at least).
am still pondering the 'what do i do next' question. have a couple of answers and have acted upon them or will act upon them in the near future.
realizing how i'm not such the risk taker. am praying that God would give me opportunities to be such. was reminded that the greater the risk, usually the greater reward. that makes me stop and think about how maybe the reward's not worth the risk, but then that makes me think that no risk equals no living abundantly (usually). so i sit, desiring to change, to take steps towards risk, but am hoping to take small steps so as not to drown in the possible failure of big risks. not sure if any of this makes sense, but i needed to get it out of my head.
God's totally using His word and opportunities of others sharing His word with me to really go down deep in my soul. For that I am thankful.
survived getting stuck in the blizzard like conditions of york, nebraska. fun times.
another day will pass and i will get closer to realizing the reward of God's kingdom come, His kingdom come on earth as it is in heaven.

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

another quote and more to come

"Pockets are hard." Feinberg

That pretty much made my day yesterday (kind of tells you what my day was like)...

The wedding of the sister happened and it was good.
I climbed the Magnolia tree in the backyard of what is now my sister's house (where my grandparents resided until this past summer when they both moved into an assisted living place). The branches seemed much smaller than I remembered...Didn't make it to the top as I once was able to, but achieved a bit of the satisfaction and thrill that only climbing a tree can bring.
I got to see some people I haven't seen in quite some time.
I walked away from the reception with the phone numbers of two guys (both I've known almost my whole life; just reconnecting with them). Still proud...ha...
Got to see my sister happier than I've ever seen her in her whole life. That was priceless.
Restored relationship with aunt and uncle (only aunt and uncle I have) I'd not seen in seven years. Saw my aunt cry for the first time ever. Get to see them again at Thanksgiving.
My best friend was in town (unbeknownst to me until Thursday of that same week, when I just happened to call her to tell her I wish she could be there with me at that time to eat lunch at Groucho's). She told me she was flying in on Friday. She walked in to the salon where I was getting my nails done (she didn't know that's where I was getting my nails done and I had no clue she'd scheduled a hair appointment for that day). She and her mom came to the wedding. Great fun. Great.
Cried alot seeing my granddad in the assisted living place for the first time. Got over that eventually and was able to enjoy spending some time with them.
Didn't go to bed prior to 1:30a all nights except the last night I was there (lots of last minute stuff to do).
Got to play the role I play best (one of the best, I suppose) as annoying but quite funny little sister during pre-wedding photo-session. Way fun.
My sister is married. I have a brother-in-law. That rocks. Met and love Patrick's family. What a neat thing...gaining another family, sort-of.
That's it for now...possibly, as the title of this post suggests, there will be more to come as I force myself to process more...