Tuesday, January 06, 2009

dreaming again

last night one of the dreams i had was that i had been bitten by a serpent in my heel and that there was poison trapped in my foot and that i was going to have to have surgery to get it out.

one of our new year's resolutions is to get up early and read scripture and pray together. shawn chose Genesis for us to start. this is part of chapter 3...

14 So the LORD God said to the serpent, "Because you have done this,
"Cursed are you above all the livestock
and all the wild animals!
You will crawl on your belly
and you will eat dust
all the days of your life.

15 And I will put enmity
between you and the woman,
and between your offspring [a] and hers;
he will crush [b] your head,
and you will strike his heel."


in other news, i'm alreay ready to leave work for the day. got here almost two hours ago and i'm done. for one thing, i thought a seminar for which i had to prepare, would be starting at 8:30a. nope...1p. fun times. and a candidate calls at 8:30 asking for something he's supposed to have read by 1p this afternoon. and that's our fault...pretty sure he even has what he's supposed to read, he just can't find it.
love my job.

Sunday, January 04, 2009

attacked by an animal

weird dreams plagued my restless sleep. in part of the dream, a group of people were on some sort of boat (when we boarded it was supposed to be some tour of something or other). from the boat we watched this cheetah (maybe?) chase and grab a fox. then, all of a sudden, either the cheetah or the fox starting getting near the boat and coming for my feet. I was screaming and trying to keep my feet tucked under me, but the animal kept coming.
another sequence in the dream, i had to walk to the school where I needed to sign up for classes. i couldn't figure out how to sign up for what i needed. and remember, i had walked all the way there (from wherever I was, of course). my sister shows up and we get in a fight (physical one). then i walk away and sense that suddenly i'm starving. so i get in the cafeteria line, but realize i only have $3.50. i order a chicken leg, a biscuit and something to drink. i pray they don't ask me to pay. and i don't have to pay. i eat and then on to another sequence...then i'm in the snow on a hill and have to traverse to the other side. that's all i remember about that part. there's one more troubling sequence that now (of course) i can't recall.
this is why it takes me a while to want to wake up occasionally...because i'm trying to resolve the dreams i have. the alarm goes off, i get up and hit snooze and then go back to bed so that i can try to make my dreams have happy endings.

in the new year, i do have a couple of resolutions.

i'm going to try and shoot for walking 45 minutes at least 3 times a day.
i'm going to try and shoot for not cussing, or even thinking a cuss word, every time i think of my current boss.
shawn and i are going to try and pray for a couple of people each night before we go to bed and are also going to try and get up early to read scripture together. we did this when we were dating and also when we first were married. have become a little slack in this.

i turn 30 in 10 days. not so much looking forward to it, but the day should be good. i have started taking off on my birthday. i use my one personal day. makes sense to me. so i've scheduled a pedicure and a hair cut and shawn's taking me out for dinner (in Marin and somewhere I've not been before is all I know) that evening. So it should be a good day.

but 30 makes me think of being responsible and having my stuff all together and i don't yet. still trying to figure out the whole what i'm going to be when i grow up. i'm now considering coaching (kind of instead of counseling). but i'm not for sure.

anyway, hopefully 2009 will be a good one. God have mercy.